Spotlight: Amber Viner
My testimony is something I used to never talk about. I used to feel unworthy and judged because of it and I felt like a failure. But I have learned that God puts us through things for a reason and my journey has not been easy but so worth it!
My testimony started July 25th, 2018. Infertility is the hardest thing I have ever been through. It’s mentally draining, depressing, and physically hard on my body and mind. It hasn’t been easy and at times I would question God wondering “why me?†“Why can’t I have a child but others can?†Without God I would have never been able to get through any of it. He never left my side and he truly showed me what love and patience was, when my husband and I wanted to expand our family and have kids we would have never imagined that we would have had to go through IVF just to have a child, but all along that was Gods plan and he never left our side.
Years went by and still no child after all the meds IUI treatments and test after tests all we got was unexplainable infertility. There is 1 out of 8 women who struggle with infertility. I kept weeping and crying out to God begging him to just give me a child I always wanted but what I didn’t know at the time he was preparing a child for me the whole time! Sometimes when we pray we feel like God doesn’t listen but that is never the case he listens but he answers the prayers in his time and that is something I had to learn in many aspects of my life! I know things have never come easy for me but I never gave up! At the time of struggling with infertility I was also working in labor and delivery which was so hard to see all these women come in and deliver beautiful babies and I was struggling with even getting pregnant, so you could imagine how I felt defeated and questioning God at this point. I prayed a lot I mean ALOT!! It seemed to help some but some days I think I was so angry that it didn’t help, I was struggling with an internal battle that only God could help me with.
My amazing husband was my rock through it all and so supportive he would always say “one bite at a time, you got this†everyday was a step in the right direction of us having a child, I knew the entire time that God would bless us it was just in his time and for me that was so hard to wait. My go to song during all of this was “meet me here†by Elevation Worship it truly explains everything I will go through that God is there and I can do this. God doesn’t bring you to a storm you can’t handle or go through. I have learned that I truly need him through everything and my faith has become so much stronger during this process.
Through all the shots which I had to do over 100 shots, through all the blood draws, ultrasounds and traveling I found peace in knowing this is Gods way of giving me a child. We finally made it to the best part of this infertility journey on May 28th 2021, we found out I was pregnant!! God is so good! We left Amarillo at 4:30am to drive to Oklahoma to get to my apt by 8:00am for just a simple blood draw to check my HCG level to see if the egg transfer that was a couple weeks before this had worked! I had to wait 4 hours after my blood draw to know results! Man that was the longest 4 hours of my life!! I finally got the call and I was nervous I could have thrown up, we got the news we had been waiting for years to hear!
Fast forward to today we have a beautiful baby boy who is 2 years old and the joy of our life! Without going through the process I had to endure we wouldn’t have him today, even though I was angry and confused I now know it was Gods plan for me all along and for that I am so thankful for! I have 4 healthy eggs frozen at this time and I know one day I will have another perfect baby that God has planned for us, rather that means getting pregnant on my own or having to do another egg transfer, but for now I will enjoy every moment with my son and I absolutely love being a momma! T
his is my testimony and I am so proud of all the things I had to do to become a momma. I know there are plenty of women that feel this same pain and my heart goes out to them. I am so blessed by God and I know my journey is beautiful.
My testimony started July 25th, 2018. Infertility is the hardest thing I have ever been through. It’s mentally draining, depressing, and physically hard on my body and mind. It hasn’t been easy and at times I would question God wondering “why me?†“Why can’t I have a child but others can?†Without God I would have never been able to get through any of it. He never left my side and he truly showed me what love and patience was, when my husband and I wanted to expand our family and have kids we would have never imagined that we would have had to go through IVF just to have a child, but all along that was Gods plan and he never left our side.
Years went by and still no child after all the meds IUI treatments and test after tests all we got was unexplainable infertility. There is 1 out of 8 women who struggle with infertility. I kept weeping and crying out to God begging him to just give me a child I always wanted but what I didn’t know at the time he was preparing a child for me the whole time! Sometimes when we pray we feel like God doesn’t listen but that is never the case he listens but he answers the prayers in his time and that is something I had to learn in many aspects of my life! I know things have never come easy for me but I never gave up! At the time of struggling with infertility I was also working in labor and delivery which was so hard to see all these women come in and deliver beautiful babies and I was struggling with even getting pregnant, so you could imagine how I felt defeated and questioning God at this point. I prayed a lot I mean ALOT!! It seemed to help some but some days I think I was so angry that it didn’t help, I was struggling with an internal battle that only God could help me with.
My amazing husband was my rock through it all and so supportive he would always say “one bite at a time, you got this†everyday was a step in the right direction of us having a child, I knew the entire time that God would bless us it was just in his time and for me that was so hard to wait. My go to song during all of this was “meet me here†by Elevation Worship it truly explains everything I will go through that God is there and I can do this. God doesn’t bring you to a storm you can’t handle or go through. I have learned that I truly need him through everything and my faith has become so much stronger during this process.
Through all the shots which I had to do over 100 shots, through all the blood draws, ultrasounds and traveling I found peace in knowing this is Gods way of giving me a child. We finally made it to the best part of this infertility journey on May 28th 2021, we found out I was pregnant!! God is so good! We left Amarillo at 4:30am to drive to Oklahoma to get to my apt by 8:00am for just a simple blood draw to check my HCG level to see if the egg transfer that was a couple weeks before this had worked! I had to wait 4 hours after my blood draw to know results! Man that was the longest 4 hours of my life!! I finally got the call and I was nervous I could have thrown up, we got the news we had been waiting for years to hear!
Fast forward to today we have a beautiful baby boy who is 2 years old and the joy of our life! Without going through the process I had to endure we wouldn’t have him today, even though I was angry and confused I now know it was Gods plan for me all along and for that I am so thankful for! I have 4 healthy eggs frozen at this time and I know one day I will have another perfect baby that God has planned for us, rather that means getting pregnant on my own or having to do another egg transfer, but for now I will enjoy every moment with my son and I absolutely love being a momma! T
his is my testimony and I am so proud of all the things I had to do to become a momma. I know there are plenty of women that feel this same pain and my heart goes out to them. I am so blessed by God and I know my journey is beautiful.